Gretchen Rossi, the blond bombshell on The Real Housewives of Orange County, is best known for bringing controversy and catfights to the show. But behind that bold, sexy exterior, Gretchen was once so insecure about her body image that she suffered from bulimia. For the first time, Gretchen opens up to In Touch about her debilitating battle with the eating disorder — and how she ultimately recovered and learned to accept her body. “I got healthy,” Gretchen smiles.

For the full interview with Gretchen, check out this week’s issue of In Touch, on newsstands now!