It only takes one episode of Teen Mom 2 to see the strength star Kailyn Lowry displays in her everyday life as a mother, wife and daughter. But her memoir, Pride Over Pity, due out this month, details just how traumatic the 22-year-old’s life has been.
In the tell-all, she opens up about losing her virginity at a very young age, an emotional abortion—and reveals she’s been raped twice.
In one of the heartbreaking entries, she recalls losing her virginity on a sidewalk when she was still in middle school.
“Suddenly, my pants and underwear were pulled down… Our movements and his touch were unromantic,” she writes of the fateful encounter in eighth grade. “When it was over, I ran home, blood trickling down my leg.”
In retrospect, she understands she was too young and naïve to experience intimacy.
“I was too young to understand that I wasn’t ready—physically or emotionally—for sex,” she says. “I believed then that I had to have sex to keep up with my friends.”
Kailyn also divulges on the two tragic rapes—one of which resulted in a pregnancy and abortion.
A sexual encounter with a boyfriend named Toby in ninth grade turned violent. Though he knew she didn’t want to go through with it, she was eager to make him happy.
“Toby wouldn’t take no for an answer…. I didn’t want to sleep with [him], but he persisted. Denying him seemed fruitless. I believed Toby loved me, so I decided I could give him this one thing as long as we wore a condom,” the mother-of-two recalled.
He refused, and she later discovered she was expecting her first child while taking a pregnancy test in a Walmart bathroom.
In excerpts obtained by RadarOnline, she wanted to keep the baby, but her mother, Suzi, persuaded her to have an abortion. It took place on her 16th birthday.
“I swear they didn’t just suck out my uterus…It felt as though they had taken every fiber of my being…I felt a mother’s grief,” the reality star explains.
But the traumatic experiences didn’t stop there, as Kailyn was raped again after welcoming son Isaac.
The TV personality claims after innocently hanging out a few times with a man named Caleb, he showed up at her door and overpowered her.
“He was plastered and insisted he needed to talk to me, so I let him in,” she writes. “But he had no interest in talking. He pulled me into the bedroom and slammed me onto the bed, taking my clothes off roughly…His strength was overpowering. I felt a tear and knew I was bleeding….It felt like I was dead.”
The Kailyn of today is a much happier one. With all the years of pain and abuse behind her, she now lives a happy life with husband Javi Marroquin, whom she married last September.
The duo welcomed son Lincoln Marshall in November.
Kailyn’s book is set to hit shelves April 22.