She’s speaking her truth. Spice Girl Mel B is telling all in a way that she never has before in her upcoming book, Brutally Honest. The America’s Got Talent judge is very open about her sexuality and her sex life with her ex-husband Stephen Belafonte, but in an excerpt from her autobiography, she revealed that during their nasty divorce, she learned that Stephen had recorded about 64 sex tapes during their romps — and Mel claims she didn’t remember filming some of them.

“In March 2017, soon after I walked away from my husband, I began a court case. The initial charges involved domestic violence,” Mel wrote, according to the Sun. “But by November 2017, as part of a mediation ­settlement, I agreed to drop domestic violence ­charges in order for all the 64 sex tapes he had made during our marriage not to be shown in open court.”

Mel, 43, explained that she was afraid that the sex tapes would be leaked, so instead, she made a deal to drop the domestic violence claims so that the tapes would never see the light of day.

“Looking back now, that was a deal I regret,” Mel wrote. “That was the most difficult time for me. You see, I had to sit down and watch those tapes. It was a legal requirement, believe it or not. And you might think, ‘So what? You’re in them, aren’t you? Having sex with whoever. It’s no big deal you had to watch them.'”

But Mel said, upon watching, she saw scenes that she did not remember taking part in at all. “I have taken drugs. I have drunk alcohol. I have had threesomes to please my partner. I have no memory of some of the sexual situations I have seen myself in on video,” Mel wrote. “I am frightened when I see myself in some of these videos. I have seen myself used sexually in a way that I did not enjoy or want. Traumatized. It is an understatement.”