Unlike many members of the A-list, Chrissy Teigen is refreshingly honest. She’s spoken frankly about her issues with body confidence, her battle with postpartum depression, and just last week she opened up about her difficulties dealing with social media. Now, the model has spoken candidly about her tricky relationship with alcohol.

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Speaking to Cosmopolitan, Chrissy discussed her drinking habits, and admitted she didn’t like the way things were going. On vacation in Bali with husband John Legend and their daughter, Luna, she came to realize that things needed to change.

“I was, point blank, just drinking too much,” she said.”I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there’s just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John, for anybody,” the mom-of-one explained.

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Teigen acknowledged that with her social lifestyle it was hard to say no to the drinking opportunities constantly thrown at her. “Imagine everything we have… Everything is there, always. I don’t know how to go to an awards show and not drink,” Chrissy said.

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While she’d love to be able to restrict her drinking, the stunning model revealed she would struggle to “have just one drink.” With alcohol abuse prevalent in her family and the medication she has been taking for her postpartum depression, Chrissy decided it would be better to stay off the booze completely. “Alcohol is like the least thing that helps,” she said.

“People think it’s cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there’s more to it. I’ve never once been like, ‘I’m sure glad I had that boozy brunch!’” she joked.

This post was written by Elizabeth Bennett. It originally appeared on our sister site, Grazia Daily.

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