So sad. Actor Brian Austin Green spoke out about how he’s mourning fellow Beverly Hills, 90210 alum Luke Perry on an episode of his podcast “… with Brian Austin Green,” and admitted that he’s struggling.

On the Thursday, March 14 installment of the series, he said, according to Radar Online, “I texted him after he passed, knowing obviously that he can’t text me back but on some level, hoping, that he would text me back, or that he was out there somewhere. And I know he is. I know he’s looking down and I know he’s smiling.” What a lovely sentiment.

Green, 45, also said, “Luke was a special guy. I’m still mourning over it so there’s a part of me that’s kind of shocked that I’m speaking about Luke this way. We all knew that at some point we’d have to deal with losing cast members and friends but not this soon. Not at 52. Not in such an abrupt way.”

Indeed, Perry died rather unexpectedly of a massive stroke on March 4. He was hospitalized on February 27 and did not recover. He died “surrounded by his children, Jack and Sophie, fianceé Wendy Madison Bauer, ex-wife Minnie Sharp, mother Ann Bennett, stepfather Steve Bennett, brother Tom Perry, sister Amy Coder and other close family and friends,” Luke’s rep, Arnold Robinson, said in a statement at the time.

On 90210, Green played David Silver and Perry portrayed Dylan McKay in one of his best-known roles. Green continued his comments on Perry during the podcast with his cohost Derek Russell and noted, “Luke was one of those people nobody had a bad story about. He was just a great guy. And he was Luke no matter where you saw him, no matter when you saw him, no matter what he was going through. He was a rock.”

In a touching but bittersweet reveal, Green also reflected that the 90210 cast met up at Gabrielle Carteris’ home after Perry passed away. He said, “You were happy to see everybody and you felt like it’s been too long and it was great. But what a horrible reason to have to see everybody.” We totally get it. Our hearts are still with everyone who loved Perry.