Hurts like hell. Ariana Grande is keeping it real, once again. The 25-year-old took to Twitter to confess how she truly feels when performing her songs and, honestly, our hearts are broken. On Thursday, April 18, a fan tweeted a heartwarming message to Ariana: “Music is your therapy and I love seeing it heal you.’’ While it’s no surprise that Arianator’s would think this, they are unfortunately wrong. In a now-deleted tweet, the ”7 Rings” star responded by saying: “Making it is healing. Performing it is like reliving it all over again and it is hell.” Ugh.

Of course, after Ari’s response, fans immediately rushed to support their girl by expressing that they “wouldn’t be mad” if she canceled the rest of her Sweetener tour to “make time for herself.” Don’t worry, that’s simply not going to happen. The thank u, next artist confirmed that she “won’t do that” despite how ‘confused and tired’ she feels. When a fan asked if touring was good for her health, she added: “I don’t think it is [healthy]. It’s been v hard. I have sm on my mind and it’s so heavy and no energy to process or work thru any of it but I’m trying hard. And I have the twins. And seeing you all is so nice. But it’s hard emotionally. I wish it were a year ago. I’d give anything.”

This is not the first time Ari opened up about her struggles with mental health. On April 11, the songstress took to Instagram to share several screenshots of brain scans that she sent in a group chat with her friends, which included her own. “Hilarious and terrifying,” she captioned the photos. The first snap was a photo of a “healthy” brain, and next to it, was a “PDSD” brain. Following those two photos, she shared four photos from her own brain scan, which happened to look quite similar to the brain with PTSD.

Ariana Grande PTSD Instagram
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This may be due to her terrifying experience during the terrorist attack that occurred at her May 2017 concert in Manchester, England. The Grammy winner has truly been through so much in so little time. Not only did she break off her short-lived engagement with Pete Davidson, but she also had to say goodbye to her ex-lover, Mac Miller who passed away from a drug overdose in September — all in less than two months.

We just wish Ari wouldn’t be so hard on herself. She’s been nominated for 6 Grammys in her lifetime, was awarded Billboard’s 2018 Woman of the Year and even broke YouTube’s all-time record for the most views in the first 24 hours of release, with her “thank u, next” music video. As for her biggest accomplishment? Well, being the youngest person to headline Coachella could definitely be one of them! The Florida native closed out the festival on Sunday, April 14, with her incredible performance, earning the event the title of “Arichella.” The pop singer surprised the crowd by bringing out ‘NSync on stage, without Justin Timberlake but, we’ll take it. According to Variety, she was paid $8 million for her performance, which by the way, is reportedly half what Beyoncé was paid in 2018. Keep killing it, Ari!

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