Letting go of the past. 90 Day Fiancé alum Larissa Dos Santos Lima found herself caught up in the drama between current 90 Day Fiancé: The Other Way stars Corey Rathgeber and Evelin Villegas‘ split earlier this week, but she’s still not over her own ex. After Larissa admitted that she still loves her ex-husband, Colt Johnson, she took to Instagram to share an emotional message about the “past.”

“Thinking about the past made me realize it is like walking into a home where you once lived. You see the dining room and remember the good times, but you cannot forget what made you leave. You realize that a bigger house and nice furniture couldn’t fix the problems anymore. I sit in the living room, watching the same old movie over and over again through tears and fear. Seeing that the dirt is still there, sadness hidden under the carpet, I decide to walk out and close the door and never look back again,” read the message Larissa, 32, shared on her Instagram Story on Saturday, October 5.

The Brazilian beauty admitted she still thinks about her failed marriage in an Instagram Live video on Friday, October 4. Larissa went live on the ‘gram to clap back at Evelin, 27, who accused Larissa of being a “whore” because she went on a date with Corey, 32,  while Corey was visiting Las Vegas earlier this week.

“Stop to involve me with your man, I am single. I do whatever I want. If I want to date right now, I can go. I have one thousand men that want [to] date me but I don’t want [to] because I love Colt. I love Coltee, and that’s it,” Larissa said on Instagram Live. “I cannot date anymore because I think too much about my marriage. One of the topics that I say to Corey yesterday was about my marriage, that I feel so sad that when I remember Coltee and everything.”

Colt and Larissa documented their love story on season 6 of TLC’s hit reality TV series 90 Day Fiancé. They continued to tell their story on season 4 of the spinoff 90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After? but for them, it was anything but. Larissa was arrested on domestic battery charges three times during their relationship after alleged altercations with Colt. He filed for divorce in January after her third arrest. The domestic violence charges in Larissa’s first two arrests were dropped. Her third charge is set to be reduced to disorderly conduct after she completes 28 domestic violence counseling classes, as well as paying a $345 fine.

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