Troubled Return to Amish star Sabrina Burkholder is giving fans an update on her struggles with sobriety. The mother-of-two — whose children were adopted by their dad's sister — reveals TLC producers have been helping her get clean.
"I'm doing good I just saw parole again yesterday," she wrote on Facebook. "TLC is involved now too, and I signed releases of information yesterday at parole allowing them (TLC) to know everything that’s going on with me. So if I would go get high and then pee dirty for parole, TLC would know immediately. I specifically asked parole to put it in the paperwork that TLC and Hot Snakes (the production company) be allowed to know everything. That way I am held accountable and have to do well, otherwise, I will lose my job. I decided that I need that kind of structure in my life."
She added, "They needed to be able to talk to my po [parole officer] for work permits to travel and stuff, plus they wanted to be able to check up on how I was doing etc. anyway. And my po was like 'I don't have to tell them anything other than if you're ok or if you're in jail. I don't need to tell them if you've pissed dirty etc." And I was just like, 'Well you might as well go ahead and tell them everything and whatever they wanna know because that way I am more likely to keep my s–t straight.'"
Sabrina has battled drug addiction for years and recently got out of jail after serving her third stint behind bars in less than a year. When a follower asked if she gets to see her four-year-old daughter Oakley and one-and-a-half-year-old Arianna, she wrote, "They are adopted now, and as long as I stay clean and sober, I'm allowed to see them." However, don't expect to catch a glimpse of them on the show. "My daughters' adoptive mother has asked that I keep my kids out of the spotlight," Sabrina revealed, "and so I want to respect that and respect their privacy."
She added that she's determined to stay sober for the sake of her little ones. "My kids deserve way better than what I've given them. I want them to have someone to look up to. I don't wanna be another junkie or another statistic that succumbed to addiction and died. Honestly, if I died today, I would not be satisfied with the life I've lived or the legacy I would leave behind, which is why I'm working on changing and becoming someone my daughters can hopefully be proud to call their mother someday." We wish you all the best on your road to recovery, Sabrina!