So heartbreaking. Rapper Lil Xan‘s fiancée Annie Smith took to Instagram on Saturday, April 6, to reveal that she suffered a miscarriage just two months after the couple announced their pregnancy. Smith, 18, opened up about the difficult news with her fans in a lengthy statement.

“These were taken the first day we met and the first few months we knew each other. Feels like a lifetime ago. The moment I met you I knew you were special. I fell head over heels in love with you and only love you more and more every single day. I didn’t know it was possible to feel this way about another human. Starting a family with you has been the most magical, beautiful blessing God has given me,” Smith wrote, starting with a tribute to her boyfriend (real name: Nicholas Diego Leanos).

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these were taken the first day we met and the first few months we knew each other. feels like a lifetime ago. the moment i met you i knew you were special. i fell head over heels in love with you and only love you more and more every single day. i didn’t know it was possible to feel this way about another human. starting a family with you has been the most magical, beautiful blessing God has given me. today i feel a hurt i never knew existed. a pain that comes from my soul. to my beautiful angel, mommy loves you more than she ever knew possible. you have made me the happiest woman in the world knowing i had the chance to be your mommy. feeling you grow inside my body has been the most special gift i have been given, my prayers were answered with you. i wish more than anything that i could meet you, hold you and love you. teach you all the beautiful things in life and show you the world. i wish you could’ve known how truly blessed you were to have a daddy like diego. we love you little angel. always ♥️

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“Today I feel a hurt I never knew existed. A pain that comes from my soul. To my beautiful angel, mommy loves you more than she ever knew possible. You have made me the happiest woman in the world knowing I had the chance to be your mommy,” she continued. “Feeling you grow inside my body has been the most special gift I have been given, my prayers were answered with you. I wish more than anything that I could meet you, hold you and love you. Teach you all the beautiful things in life and show you the world. I wish you could’ve known how truly blessed you were to have a daddy like Diego. We love you, little angel. Always ♥️.”

The “Betrayed” rapper and Smith were friends for years and started dating in November 2018, just two months after his split from Noah Cyrus. They sparked engagement rumors in January after Smith referred to Xan as her “fiancé” on Instagram, and they announced their pregnancy one month later. Earlier this week, the couple sparked marriage rumors after Xan referred to Smith as his “beautiful wife” in an Instagram comment.

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