In an interview with In Touch, former Real Housewives of Miami star Joanna Krupa speaks out about her painful divorce from Romain Zago.

Joanna admits that she was “caught off guard” when her husband of nearly four years asked for a divorce mid-December of 2016, saying, “I spent many nights crying. It was the worst Christmas imaginable. I felt like my life had been turned upside down, and I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I cried. I couldn’t eat. I probably lost about 7 pounds.”

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“I was heartbroken. He had wanted a family, but I was always traveling and made work my priority. As time has gone on, I’ve realized we were both unhappy,” she continued, adding that she married her friend and business partner, but not her lover.

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Seven months later, the Poland-born beauty is on the mend and ready to reclaim her happiness, confessing, “I feel alive again. I finally woke up one day thinking, 'I’ve got to get myself together.' I had been dead inside. I realized I’m healthy, I’m successful, I have an amazing family and friends, what am I crying about? Life is too short.”

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Joanna reveals that she and Romain are on “great terms” and have been speaking every day, explaining, “We were together 10 years, and I want to respect that. We were both at fault, we both neglected the relationship, but we’ve found forgiveness. I’m finally enjoying life again. I’m going out to dinners with friends and planning a vacation.”

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