It’s been nearly two months since Ariana Grande and Pete Davidson officially ended their five-month engagement. While the “thank u, next” singer has made a number of public statements on social media regarding their split, Pete has remained silent on the internet… until now.

On Dec. 3, the SNL star took to his Instagram, which had been inactive until Nov. 28, to address the concerning amount of online bullying he’s had to face over the past nine months. Pete also opened up about his struggles with Borderline Personality Disorder, as well as, suicidal thoughts.

“I’ve kept my mouth shut. Never mentioned any names, never said a word about anyone or anything,” he began. “I’m trying to understand how when something happens to a guy the whole entire world just trashes him without any facts or frame of reference,” Pete continued, before adding, “especially in today’s climate where everyone loves to be offended and upset it is truly mind-boggling.”

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“I’ve been getting online bullied and in public by people for [nine] months. I’ve spoken about BPD and being suicidal publicly only in the hopes that it will help bring awareness and help kids like myself who don’t want to be on this earth,” the 25-year-old expressed.

“I just want you guys to know. No matter how hard the internet or anyone tries to make me kill myself. I won’t. I’m upset I even have to say this. To all those holding me down and seeing this for what it is — I see you and I love you,” Pete concluded.

Thankfully, the response to Pete’s post has been mostly positive. “Keep pushing, Pete! Your presence here is very important. You are here for a reason!” one user commented. “Stay strong, Pete. We all love you,” added another.

Some fans, however, were quick to blame Ariana’s fanbase (Arianators, the Ariana Army) for all of the toxicity the comedian has encountered. “Ariana Grande fans are the most toxic fans on the planet,” someone wrote. “The Ariana Army needs to stop. You don’t deserve this,” chimed another. As it stands, Ariana has yet to comment on Pete’s post.

If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.