This story is sickening. Melissa Schuman, a former member of the girl band Dream, took to her personal blog on Nov. 21 to share her story about allegedly being raped by Nick Carter in vivid detail.

The singer reveals that she was just 18 when the Backstreet Boy invited her over to hang out in his Santa Monica apartment. They were working on the same TV movie, and Melissa said she went to his place with her friend on a day off. She said that Nick "provided liquor" for them, and then "asked me if I would like to come into his office and listen to some new music he was working on." "Naturally we started to kiss," she explained, but "He was aware that I was a virgin and that I held to religious conservative christian values. I was vocal about this. Everyone knew about this, including those who repped me."

She said she got uncomfortable when Nick brought her to the bathroom, but after she asked him why they were there, "he then pick me up, put me on the bathroom counter and started to unbutton my pants. I told him I didn’t want to go any further. He didn't care." He said he wouldn't tell anyone, to which she said that's not the reason she didn't want to do it. "He proceeded to perform oral sex on me. I told him to stop, but he didn’t. So I turned off the bathroom light so I wouldn’t see anything. He kept turning the light back on because he told me he wanted to look at me."

Melissa writes that Nick then demanded she perform oral on him, and became angry when she refused. "It was evident to me, that i couldn’t leave. He was stronger and much bigger than me, and there was no way I would be able to open that door or have anyone help me. My friend couldn’t help me, I didn’t even know where she was. So when he placed my hand on his penis my thought was the only way to get out was to get him to finish what he had started. That’s where I saw myself, my reflection, watching myself do something that I was sicken by. Watching myself be assaulted, forced to engage in an act against my will."

Things only got worse from there, she says. "He threw me on the bed and climbed on top of me. He was relentless, refusing to take my no’s for an answer. He was heavy, too heavy to get out from under him. Then I felt it, he put something inside of me. It was done. The one thing I had held as a virtue had been ruined. I went limp, turned my head to my left and decided I would just go to sleep now. I wanted to believe it was some sort of nightmare I was dreaming up."

Melissa explained that she left in the morning and didn't tell her friend. Nick called her repeatedly, and she was finally forced to speak to him at a showcase where they were doing a duet, and where she learned her new manager Kenneth Crear was his best friend. After the awkward encounter, her manager screwed her over and she never did another showcase.

She says that she actually wanted to press charges when it happened. "I confided in my then manager, Nils Larsen, that I wanted to come forward. He heard me out and said he would do some investigation and would try to find me a good attorney as I intended to press charges. He later informed me that my abuser, who’s name I will disclose later in this article, had the most powerful litigator in the country." Melissa realized she didn't have the money to do battle in court. "I was told I would likely be buried in humiliation, accused of being fame hungry, and it would ultimately hurt me professionally as well as publicly." Nick has yet to respond to the allegations.