In an exclusive interview with In Touch, Frankie Muniz says despite suffering from unexplained memory loss, he was determined to remember his positive experience on Dancing With the Stars this season. “I don’t think I’ll ever forget this,” Frankie says, “but the cool thing is that it’s on TV, so I get to relive it that way.”

The Malcolm in the Middle star quickly became a DWTS fan favorite thanks to the extra dose of heart he put into every rumba, jive and cha-cha alongside partner Witney Carson. It was on the ballroom competition show that Frankie, 31, revealed he has long-term memory issues: For the past 10 years, he hasn’t been able to recall major events from his childhood.

“I don’t know the cause. It’s not something I’ve looked into. I’m not a doctor person, they just tell me I’m crazy,” Frankie says. “My mom will bring things up from Malcolm in the Middle, or trips we went on or big events, and it’s just a new story for me.”

“It doesn’t affect my short-term memory,” Frankie explains. “But my girlfriend started writing a detailed journal about a year ago. I get sad at the thought of losing memories, so I can just look at that anytime.”

But that didn’t stop the star from having a positive experience on the show. “There hasn’t been one moment where I’ve been like, ‘Oh, I wish I wasn’t doing this.'” It’s been so fun working with Witney. I dread the day I don’t get to wake up and go to rehearsal.” He added, “Our first dance, I was a wreck. But I’ll never, ever forget how good it felt when I heard the crowd cheering for us mid-dance.”

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