“I knew, even before I met Taylor, I would love again, and I would get married again, and I would have a family. And all the things I always hoped for and wanted, I still believed were out there and possible,” the This Is Us starlet, 35, said in an interview for Michigan Avenue Magazine’s May cover story. “Not to say that I didn’t have my own grief and pain and trauma to tend to, deal with, overcome and heal from, but it never affected how I feel about love.”
Even though the New Hampshire native’s ex had put her through the ringer, she was eager to move on with her life and find a new relationship. “I was very hungry. I was not apprehensive at all. I knew that past situations didn’t define me and didn’t even define what love or marriage or relationships or any of that had to be. My experiences in the past were singular to that.”
The Princess Diaries alum also couldn’t help but gush about her man. “It was inevitable — it was always going to happen,” she said about their intimate backyard wedding at their Los Angeles home. “I was like, ‘Oh, this is what it’s supposed to be like. This is how life is supposed to unfold.’”
In February, more than half a dozen women — including Mandy — accused Ryan of sexual misconduct and emotional manipulation in a shocking exposé published by The New York Times.
“He would always tell me, ‘You’re not a real musician because you don’t play an instrument,’” the Golden Globe nominee said at the time. “His controlling behavior essentially did block my ability to make new connections in the industry during a very pivotal and potentially lucrative time — my entire mid-to-late 20s.”
She added, “What you experience with him — the treatment, the destructive, manic sort of back and forth behavior — feels so exclusive,” she confessed. “You feel like there’s no way other people have been treated like this.”
The music producer later apologized for his actions and explained his side of the story. “I am not a perfect man, and I have made many mistakes. To anyone I have ever hurt, however unintentionally, I apologize deeply and unreservedly,” he said to Us Weekly in a statement. “But the picture that this article paints is upsettingly inaccurate. Some of its details are misrepresented; some are exaggerated; some are outright false. I would never have inappropriate interactions with someone I thought was underage. Period. As someone who has always tried to spread joy through my music and my life, hearing that some people believe I caused them pain saddens me greatly. I am resolved to work to be the best man I can be. And I wish everyone compassion, understanding and healing.”
However, in the end, Mandy came out on top for being brave and sharing her experience with the world. “I’ve just been really emboldened by the support that, I think, myself and the other women that have spoken out in this particular situation have received,” she told Us Weekly in March. “It’s really heartening. And heartening to know that other woman can look to it as an example as well. Like, ‘You’re not alone. You’re seen. You’re heard. You’re acknowledged. It’s real. And I’m so sorry.’”
You’re such an inspiration, Mandy.
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