She’s growing so fast! Even though TLC’s hit reality TV series Little People, Big World is off the air right now, fans love to keep up with the growing Roloff family via social media — and no one shares more than Jeremy Roloff‘s wife Audrey Roloff! The new mom took to Instagram to give fans an update on their two-month-old baby girl Ember Jean‘s growth and she couldn’t help but feel torn about it! Watch the video below to read Audrey’s sweet message to her daughter!

We’re not crying, you are! The 26-year-old is extremely open about her life on social media, so it was concerning for fans when she took a brief social media hiatus after she gave birth to Ember back in September. But she eventually returned to Instagram two weeks after giving birth and she got extremely candid about motherhood — and how it did or didn’t meet her expectations.

“While I am overflowing with love for my daughter and husband, I won’t sugar coat it… these past two weeks have been HARD,” she wrote. “The first 24 hours with Ember were bliss, but after that, it was as if I went back into labor again…I was well prepared for the pain and suffering that comes with childbirth, but I was not prepared for the pain and suffering that comes afterwards [sic].”

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l always thought breastfeeding was a choice. People would often ask me if l was going to breastfeed when I was pregnant and l always answered with a determined yes. But after Ember was born, l realized that for some people, it’s not a choice. My breastfeeding journey has not been easy. After sharing with you all a little bit about the struggles l have had feeding Ember, l realized that so many of you have gone through, or are currently going through, similar pains, heart aches, and challenges. About 24 hours after Ember was born, l became severely engorged. The nurses at the hospital admitted to it being the worse case they’d ever seen. l couldn’t put my arms at my sides or hold Ember – except to feed, and feeding was so painful because l was also badly blistered/bruised (we later found out Ember had a significant lip and tounge tie). Not to mention, what they had to do to “get me flowing” was excruciating. l thought the pain was supposed to be over once they laid her on my chest? But people just don’t talk enough about the after labor pains… 🙈 • Three days after coming home from the hospital, l came down with mastitis. The antibiotics for my infection, stress, Ember’s lip and tounge tie, sleep deprivation, and some misguided medical advice caused my milk supply to completely tank. l was devastated and even told by a pediatrician and lactation consultant that l would probably not ever be able to exclusively breastfeed Ember. She was having trouble gaining weight and they were concerned. They also thought l had insiffienct granular tissue.. 💔 • Here we are two months later and Ember has been exclusively breastfeed for the past 5 weeks!!! So much hard work and prayers have come to fruition🙌🏻 • Two days ago l came down with mastitis again… but l was reminded that even though this journey still poses its challenges, being able to feed my daughter from my own body brings me incomparable joy. l will defintely be sharing more about this journey on my blog eventually, but l just wanted to share this here and now in case there are other new mamas out there that could be encouraged and filled with hope by my testimony. #alwaysmore #emberjean

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Audrey struggled with the normal postpartum aches and pains, but she also struggled with breastfeeding her daughter and she suffered from severe engorgement, too much or too little milk supply, blisters, bruises, clogged ducts, and mastitis — which is a painful infection of the breast tissue that is common among breastfeeding mothers. But thankfully, Audrey was able to endure and overcome and earlier this month, she revealed that she had been able to successfully and exclusively breastfeed Ember for five weeks straight.

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