Jamie Otis is continuing to open up.

The Married at First Sight star shared an emotional throwback photo, in which she is three months pregnant. The photo was taken just one month before she suffered a devastating miscarriage.

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"It wasn't my choice to survive without you. So I will spend my life living for you and honoring you." I was so happy to have you in my belly. I was 3 months pregnant with you in this photo … little did I know a month later I'd lose you. The heartache since you left has been excruciating. Johnny, I can't help but think of what you'd look like if you were able to stay in there safe & sound & come to us like you were supposed to for Christmas. I'll always love & honor you. You're my angel baby. Even though we only met briefly & I only got to hold you & give you kisses once – I still miss you. I'll always, always love you. 👼🏼💙 #AngelBaby #babyboy #JohnathanEdward #miscarriage #neverforget #3months

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She captioned the photo, “‘It wasn’t my choice to survive without you. So I will spend my life living for you and honoring you.’ I was so happy to have you in my belly. I was three months pregnant with you in this photo…little did I know a month later, I’d lose you. The heartache since you left has been excruciating. Johnny, I can’t help but think of what you’d look like if you were able to stay in there safe and sound and come to us like you were supposed to for Christmas. I’ll always love and honor you. You’re my angel baby. Even though we only met briefly and I only got to hold you and give you kisses once — I still miss you. I’ll always, always love you.”

Jamie and her husband, Doug Hehner, continue to be in our thoughts.