In a revealing interview in October's Vanity Fair magazine, Nicole Kidman talks about how she miscarried Tom Cruise's baby when she was 23 and that she was briefly engaged to someone in between her divorce from Tom and her marriage to Keith Urban. "From the minute Tom and I were married, I wanted to have babies," says Nicole. "And we lost a baby early on, so that was really very traumatic. And that's when it came that we should adopt Bella (their now-14-year-old daughter)." After her split with Tom, Nicole reveals, "I got engaged to somebody, but it just wasn't right. I wasn't ready. We weren't ready." As for meeting husband, Keith, Nicole adds, "I would probably say that two very lonely people managed to meet at a time when they could open themselves to each other. We were a mixture of frightened and brave." Finally, Nicole still wants to have babies. "I'm yearning to have one," admits the 40-year-old star. "I think it would be very sad if I wasn't able to have a baby. Keith knows I want one, and he has been getting there slowly."