With his raunchy and controversial lyrics, it’s not often we can say Eminem is pretty much the voice of the people.
But he was, like, this close to making it happen. All it would’ve taken was a song with one, teeny, tiny little dig at Kanye West—which he already considered doing.
Slim Shady went on Power 106 this week and dished about the meaning of his song “Talkin 2 Myself”—from his 2010 album “Recovery.”
The lyrics go, “Hatred was flowing through my veins, on the verge of going insane/I almost made a song dissing Lil Wayne/It’s like I was jealous of him cause of the attention he was getting’… Almost went at Kanye too, God it/Feels like I’m going psychotic, thank God I didn’t do it/I’da had my a-- handed to me, and I knew it.”
Em told radio host Big Boy that he was referring to the time when he took a “hiatus” from music between his 2005 tour and the release of “Relapse” in 2009.
At that time, it was hard for him to see his fellow rappers achieve.
“I was kind of watching what was going on in the game and it was like anything that was hot at that moment or anybody who was really killing s--t at that moment…
"I felt so bad about myself and the music that I was creating, that I felt like I started to turn into a hater,” he confessed.
While the song only calls out Kanye and Lil Wayne, they weren’t the only ones that Em felt threatened by—in fact, he wanted to record a song in which he called out everyone who had success during that time, but ultimately ruled against it.
The 41-year-old said he felt he “should make a song just dissing everybody” but didn’t, deeming it “career suicide.”
We’re a little surprised the usually “Not Afraid” singer bowed down from sharing something controversial. Less surprising is that the cost of putting the always-arrogant Kanye in his place would’ve been huge—like Eminem’s career.
While the song teases that he almost made the track, Mr. Mathers made it clear he never actually recorded anything. Luckily, he got a hold of his emotions before they could take control.
“I just had the thoughts, just walking around the studio. I just wasn’t happy with myself,” he said.
“I knew there were some really dark moments in there… my thought process was when I was high a lot, it wasn’t good, man, and it certainly wasn’t me.”
While he was opening up about his hiatus from music, he confirmed that while he wasn’t releasing any tracks, he was still making music—and learning how to channel his passion into positive energy.
“I never really left the business,” Eminem said. “This is my passion… it’s my therapy. It just feels good to get it out.”