She’s telling us how she really feels! When Audrey Roloff married into the Roloff family, she automatically became a star on the family’s hit reality TV show Little People, Big World. But even though she allowed to let cameras film the most intimate, private moments of her life until she and her husband Jeremy Roloff decided to quit the show earlier this year, Audrey did so sort of reluctantly. During an interview on the Heroes for Her podcast, hosted by Erin Weidenman, Audrey revealed that she was never really comfortable filming the show.

“You never get used to it honestly,” Audrey, 27, said, via Radar. “My sister-in-law, we always joke, like, ‘You never get used to it.’ Because we are not created to be in the public eye, it’s just a weird thing.”

Audrey revealed that she really started to notice how awkward filming was when it came to her wedding day with Jeremy, and she was worried that having cameras capture every moment of their special day would take away from the intimacy that they craved on their wedding.

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“I didn’t want that to ruin the intimacy of the day,” Audrey confessed. “I didn’t want it to take away for my friends and family being able to just be themselves.”

But Jeremy and his family had been filming their hit TLC reality TV series since Jeremy was 13 years old, so Audrey went along with it.

“I kind of had to learn to accept, like, ‘Hey, this is part of Jeremy’s life and I need to learn to respect it as best as I can,'” she said. “And in the same way he did the same for me, in that, like, I’m a little bit uncomfortable with, like, wearing a microphone under my wedding dress all day.”

Auj and Jer were able to hit a happy medium with production, and she was able to give fans a peek into their wedding day while also keeping some of the more intimate moments private.

“We actually had a lot of things that wasn’t actually filmed on our wedding day so I actually took off my microphone for our first look,” she said. “That actually was not filmed. We did a first look and it wasn’t on TV or anything. And we took communion and they didn’t film that. So there were certain things that I told Jeremy that I wanted those moments to be just ours and he, like, really went to battle for that.”

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