Lamar Odom is finally opening up about his October 2015 overdose that nearly cost him his life.
In a new interview on The Doctors — airing tomorrow, Jan. 17 — the former NBA star reflects on the moments that led up to his hospitalization and overdose.
“Did I feel ashamed about some of the choices I made?” he asks. “I was basically just committing suicide.”
The 37-year-old was rushed to the hospital after he was found unconscious at the Love Ranch in Nevada. He was later put in a coma and on life support while Khloé Kardashian opted to call off their then-pending divorce in order to make the necessary medical decisions for her husband. At the time, it was revealed that he suffered several strokes and was experiencing kidney failure.
Lamar has kept many of the details of his hospitalization private — though he has opened up about the struggles he was experiencing prior to the overdose.
“I wasn’t in a good place mentally, especially mentally, before the incident happened,” he says during the same not-yet-aired appearance on The Doctors. “My wife at the time, we were going through some things. I was in a dark place. So, I guess they say everything happens for a reason. So, I guess the reason is, I’m here and I can tell the story.”
Lamar — who checked into rehab late last year, but has since been released — has shared some frightening details of his order, adding, “I couldn’t talk. Nothing would come out when I would open my mouth. So I was scared.”
In the same interview, the father-of-two explains he didn’t know why he was in the hospital until Khloé told him — adding to his fear during the hospitalization.
During a January 2016 interview on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Khloé opened up about how Lamar didn’t know the circumstances that led to his hospitalization.
“Every day, he’ll ask me, ‘So what happened to me?’” she explained at the time. “Like today, specifically, he was like, ‘How many tubes did I have in me again?’ And I’m like, ‘I don’t know what’s too serious to tell you,’ but I’m honest. I’m like, ‘Well, just a lot. I didn’t count, I don’t know.’ But it’s good that he wants to know these answers. Before he didn’t want to know — he wasn’t ready to know. So it’s great that he’s at the point that he’s ready to know everything that happened.”
If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).