In a new interview, abduction survivor Elizabeth Smart revealed she contemplated suicide after being kidnapped. On an episode of Crime Watch Daily with Chris Hansen, airing Tuesday, the now 29-year-old opened up to fellow survivor and victim advocate, Daisy Coleman.

"For me, because I grew up in a very conservative Christian neighborhood, the first time I was raped I remember feeling devastated," Elizabeth — who was abducted in 2002 at age 14 — told Daisy. "I felt like it would be better to be dead than to continue living being a rape victim, being a rape survivor," Elizabeth said. "I felt in that moment if there had been an easy way out, I probably would have taken it."

During her 2003 rescue, Elizabeth remembered being confused. "One second I was being reunited with my parents, the next second I was being questioned, the next second, they take me up to the hospital and then they’re like, 'Oh, take off your clothes. Oh, let’s do this kit on you,'" Elizabeth said. She described how she had been drugged during captivity, tied to a tree, and raped as often as four times a day, beginning when Brian David Mitchell broke into the Smart family’s Salt Lake City home and took her from her room. "Nobody was really telling me anything and I remember when they were doing the rape kit, I just remember thinking, 'What’s going on?'

Since returning home, Elizabeth has become an author, philanthropist, and motivational speaker, Last April, she welcomed her second child with husband Matthew Gilmour. Meanwhile, Brian is currently serving a life sentence on charges related to the kidnapping.

If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

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