One week after Avicii’s tragic death, his girlfriend, Tereza Kačerová, took to Instagram to write a heartbreaking letter to the late DJ. In the 13-page note, the model shared the details of their secret relationship and revealed that they were planning to have children one day.

“I’ve spent the last days waiting to wake up, waiting for someone to tell me that this is some sick joke, some awful mistake,” she wrote. “I think it’s finally settling on me now that I will truly never get to see you again.”

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She continued, “I was always very set on keeping our relationship private because I wanted it to be OURS and ours only and wanted no part in that madness. But I thought, if I’m going to share this with the world, it will be when I’m pregnant with our child. Ohhh how that plan went awry.”

Tereza explained how Avicii, whose real name is Tim Bergling, was a father figure for her son, Lucas. “I used to tell you that Luka will never remember a life without you,” she wrote. “Now I hope that he will remember his life WITH you. I’ll be there to remind him. I’ll show him the videos of him constantly calling out to you wherever he and I were."

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The brightest stars burn out the fastest.

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On April 20, Avicii’s publicist confirmed that the “Wake Me Up” DJ was found dead in Muscat, Oman. The news came just days after he was nominated for a Billboard Music Award for Top Dance/Electronic Album for Avicii (01). A few days later, Avicii’s family released a statement thanking fans for their “support” and “loving words.”

“We are so grateful for everyone who loved Tim’s music and have precious memories of his songs,” the statement read. “Thank you for all the initiatives taken to honor Tim, with public gatherings, church bells ringing out his music, tributes at Coachella and moments of silence around the world. We are grateful for the privacy during this difficult time. Our wish is that it continues this way.”

Although the cause of death has not been confirmed, Avicii’s family shared a second statement that hints the artist died by suicide. “Our beloved Tim was a seeker, a fragile artistic soul searching for answers to existential questions. An over-achieving perfectionist who travelled and worked hard at a pace that led to extreme stress. When he stopped touring, he wanted to find a balance in life to be happy and be able to do what he loved most — music," the statement read. "He really struggled with thoughts about Meaning, Life, Happiness. He could not go on any longer. He wanted to find peace. Tim was not made for the business machine he found himself in; he was a sensitive guy who loved his fans but shunned the spotlight. Tim, you will forever be loved and sadly missed. The person you were and your music will keep your memory alive.”

If you or a loved one is grappling with suicidal thoughts, you can call the Suicide Prevention Helpline at 1-800-273-8255 for free, confidential support available 24/7.

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