She’s coming clean. Teen Mom 2 star Leah Messer has slowly started to be more comfortable with sharing her story, and now it seems like she’s ready to be open about her struggle with prescription drugs. In a new episode of her podcast Life Reboot, Leah admitted that a botched epidural during her labor with daughter Addie in 2013 led to her drug dependency — which never made it onto a previous scene of Teen Mom 2.

“It was actually the scene, they were talking about how we were being flirty and trying to get back together but honestly, the entire scene was about the botched spinal tap and how Jeremy [Calvert] had to carry me from one room to the next because I couldn’t walk,” Leah, 26, said. “I just went in to deliver Addie and they injected me 13 times and, even in the hospital, I couldn’t get up — and they just put me on morphine.”

Leah said even four days after she gave birth, she still couldn’t walk. She decided that she would leave the hospital, but her condition didn’t improve once she got home. “It still doesn’t get better at home,” Leah continued. “They put me on different drugs to go home on for like, three months, three different drugs.”

“By then, I was already… you can’t say that I wasn’t, already, dependent on the medication,” she continued, later adding, “Well, then they put me on Diazepam and it has me nodding off. I didn’t even know what that was!”

Diazepam, which more commonly known as Valium, is a controlled substance that is usually prescribed to treat anxiety, muscle spasms, and seizures, according to WebMD.

Fans watched Leah struggle with her dependency on the show, and at the time Leah denied having a problem with pills. But thankfully, she completed a 30-day treatment program for depression and anxiety in June 2015 and she’s been on the mend ever since.

Leah said that her experience with prescription drugs is the reason why she doesn’t allow doctors to administer medicine like that to her girls.

“I don’t even let my girls have anything. We do the numbing gel and that’s it, because I don’t want them to become dependent on or even go through that,” Leah, 26, said. “I do know how it feels to become dependent on anything given by doctors.”

If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, contact the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357).

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