Selena Gomez Documentary ‘My Mind & Me’ Revelations: Quotes

Selena Gomez released her new Apple TV+ documentary, Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me, on Friday November 4, and it featured several revelations she’s learned throughout her acting and music career. From her past relationship with Justin Bieber to her medical experience with Lupus and to her bipolar diagnosis, the Only Murders in the Building actress unpacked a lot of information for her fans.

Selena, 30, and Justin, 28, were in a tumultuous on-again, off-again relationship from 2011 to 2018. During that time, the “Baila Conmigo” artist suffered from a few health scares, including a mental breakdown in 2016. As she was questioned by paparazzi about Justin’s other flames, including now-wife Hailey Bieber, the Disney Channel alum admitted in the film that she wanted to be known for her own music and not just her association with the “Baby” artist.

“[Chairman of Interscope Records John Janick] called me this morning about the song with Justin,” Selena said in one beginning scene. “I’m like, when am I going to just be good enough by myself? When am I going to be good enough — just me by myself, not needing anybody to be associated with?”

Shortly afterward, the doc revealed Selena’s 2016 Revival tour had been canceled following 55 performances.

The film also unraveled her October 2018 hospitalization. Close friend Raquelle Stevens revealed that the “Feel Me” singer was struggling with her mental health and “hearing all of these voices” that ultimately “triggered some sort of psychotic break.”

Later, Selena’s former assistant, Theresa Mingus, recalled Selena’s depression.

“At one point she’s like, ‘I don’t wanna be alive right now. I don’t wanna live.’ And I’m like, wait, what?” Theresa said. “And it was one of those moments where you look into her eyes, and there’s nothing there. It was just pitch black, and it’s so scary.”

At the time, Selena wasn’t speaking to her mother, Mandy Teefey and stepdad Brian Teefey. Mandy told the cameras that they had only “heard about her mental breakdown through TMZ.”

As the doc segued into 2019, Selena opened up about her hit single “Lose You to Love Me” following her 2018 breakup from Justin.

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“Everything was so public,” the Billboard Music Award winner began. “I feel haunted by a past relationship that no one wanted to let go of, but then I just moved past it.”

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Scroll down to see all of the revelations from Selena’s documentary, My Mind & Me.

‘Just Me By Myself’

As the Teen Choice Award winner formed her pop star image, Selena admitted she didn’t want to be known her collaborations with other artists, including her on/off boyfriend Justin.
“[John] called me this morning about the song with Justin,” she explained. “I’m like, when am I going to just be good enough by myself? When am I going to be good enough — just me by myself, not needing anybody to be associated with?”

‘I Don’t Wanna Live’

Amid the cancellation of her Revival tour, Selena confided in her friend Raquelle that she had been “hearing all these voices” in her head. Her former assistant, Theresa, also described the “Look At Her Now” singer’s depression.

“At one point she’s like, ‘I don’t wanna be alive right now. I don’t wanna live.’ And I’m like, wait, what?” she explained. “And it was one of those moments where you look into her eyes, and there’s nothing there. It was just pitch black, and it’s so scary. You’re like ‘OK, f—k this. This needs to end. We’re going home.’”

Hometown Visit

In 2019, the 13 Reasons Why executive producer visited her old school and childhood home, where she would watch drug deals happen across the street at her neighbor’s house.

“I think my past and my mistakes, that’s what drives me into depression,” Selena admitted in a separate scene. “My whole, since I was a kid, I’ve been working, and the only thing I want is, like, a family. I just wanna be, like, a mom … I just wanna quit sometimes so I can be happy and be normal like everybody else. It’s just, like, I want you to know that I feel like God has given me this platform not to quit. I don’t wanna be super famous. I don’t wanna be all that stuff. But I do know that if I’m here, I wanna use that for good.”

‘Worst Possible Heartbreak’

After Selena and Justin split in early 2018, she reflected on the pain she went through after their split and her inspiration behind her single “Lose You to Love Me.”

“I feel haunted by a past relationship that no one wanted to let go of, but then I just moved past it. And I wasn’t afraid anymore,” the Spring Breakers actress said. “I feel like I had to go through the worst possible heartbreak ever. And then, just forgetting everything at the drop of a hand, it was really confusing. But I just think that needed to happen. And ultimately, it was the best thing that ever happened to me.”

‘I Had to Relearn Things’

Toward the end of the documentary, the Grammy Award nominee explained why she wasn’t “ashamed” of living with bipolar disorder.

“When you’re struggling with your mental health, the essential part of it is knowing what to do and recognizing that,” Selena noted. “It’s something that I’m not ashamed of. I had to relearn things. I completely fell out of my mind. It was like, ‘Hey you’re not a bad person, you’re not a gross person, you’re not any of this. But you’re going to have to deal with this.’ I know it’s a lot, but this is the reality, and I found having a relationship with bipolar and myself — it’s going to be there. I’m just making it my friend to know. I think that I needed to go through that to be who I am, and I’m going to keep going through that.”