Selena Gomez is speaking her truth.
The 24-year-old appeared on the cover of American Vogue for the first time, and opened up about her struggles with fame, anxiety, and depression and her trip to rehab last summer.
During the interview, she was asked about her relationship with The Weeknd and didn’t hold back when it comes to her hesitations.
“Look, I love what I do, and I’m aware of how lucky I am,” she said. “But — how do I say this without sounding weird? I just really can’t wait for people to forget about me.”
She revealed that she’s still in therapy and sees her therapist five times a week for Dialectical Behavior Therapy, which is usually used to treat people with borderline personality disorder.
“DBT has completely changed my life,” she said. “I wish more people would talk about therapy. We girls, we’re taught to be almost too resilient, to be strong and sexy and cool and laid-back, the girl who’s down. We also need to feel allowed to fall apart.”
Sel said that used to fall apart regularly after her shows, calling tours “a really lonely place for [her].” Despite this, she insisted on joining her new boyfriend on tour and things are already backfiring for the “Come and Get It” singer.
“She drank non-stop throughout his Paris concert, and that night they and two other friends basically spent the entire night awake so they could party. He just doesn’t seem to be a great influence on her,” a source tells In Touch exclusively. “You would think if your girlfriend just came out of rehab, you would discourage partying, but that hasn’t been the case.”
While Selena’s team has always maintained that her stint in rehab was not about substance abuse, the constant partying is taking a toll on her mental health.
“First, she gets depressed, then has massive anxiety, then starts drinking and partying way too hard,” the source adds. “Then goes into denial and finally has a breakdown.”
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