Exclusive: Robert Kardashian’s Private Diaries Reveal Dark Secrets from Kim, Kourtney and Khloé’s Childhood

In Touch has exclusively obtained the late Robert Kardashian’s handwritten diaries from his widow, Ellen Kardashian.

In the journal entries, dated throughout 1989 and 1990, Robert paints a heartbreaking childhood portrait of Kim, Kourtney and Khloé and a damning picture of mom Kris Jenner.

“Kris was kicking and beating her and said she was going to kill [Kim]!” Robert claimed in his diary on Aug. 24, 1989. “Kim was hysterical.” That’s just one of the shocking incidents the lawyer, who died of esophageal cancer in 2003, recorded in his diary at the time his 12-year marriage to Kris was imploding.

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Robert goes on to detail Kris’ alleged affair with younger soccer player Todd Waterman, claiming Kris left her kids — all under the age of 11— for days at a time. “She doesn’t leave a number in case of emergency. She doesn’t care!” he wrote on Dec. 15, 1989. “She left [the] kids and screwed all night!” Only 10 days after that entry, Robert chronicled that “Kris couldn’t get her act together” to spend Christmas with her children, “I was home alone with 4 kids.”

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Robert’s widow, Ellen, confirms the authenticity of the journals, telling In Touch, "These are authentic handwritten journals I have shared, that my late husband Robert Kardashian so carefully wrote during 1989 and 1990 at a most trying and touching time of his life. They are my personal possessions and he left them to me on his passing."

For more shocking allegations from Robert’s diaries and photos of his actual entries, pick up this week’s issue of In Touch, on newsstands now!