Teen Mom 2 star Farrah Abraham couldn’t stop talking about how proud she was after filming her now infamous sex tape, Farrah Superstar: Back Door Teen Mom. Now, she admits her regrets about making an adult film to In Touch.
“It made it hard to have friends and a private life and to trust family, who I feel use me for money,” Farrah tells In Touch, on newsstands now. “If I went back in time, I would not have done it. The sex tape ruined my life.”
Despite warnings from family who feared selling the X-rated tape would send a terrible message to her 4-year-old daughter, Sophia, Farrah did it anyway — and says she quickly realized it was a bad idea. “Knowing my sex tape was out there for everyone in the world to see ... was overwhelming,” she says. “I wanted to hide my face and not go out or pick up my phone.”
Her decision hasn’t helped her love life either. In May, Farrah met DJ Brian Dawe, 31, at her 22nd-birthday celebration at the Hard Rock Hollywood in Florida. She says they started dating but their relationship soon fizzled. “He abandoned me,” Farrah tells In Touch. The pair had signed up to appear on VH1’s new season of Couples Therapy, but Brian bailed at the last minute — leaving Farrah to attend solo.
Still, she’s glad she went ahead and did the show by herself. “Therapy helped me understand I can’t continue experiencing life [the way I had been], that I’m more special than sex tapes,” she explains. “Hearing others tell me my worth is [all based on] my body. ... I’m stronger than that.”
For more from Farrah, pick up the latest issue of In Touch, on newsstands now.