In her cover interview for the March 2019 issue of Harper’s Bazaar, Cardi B opens up about postpartum depression, which she says clouded her life for several months after welcoming her daughter, Kulture Kiari, whom she lovingly calls “KK.”

“I thought I was going to avoid it,” the “Bodak Yellow” rapper, 26, confessed. “When I gave birth, the doctor told me about postpartum, and I was like, ‘Well, I’m doing good right now. I don’t think that’s going to happen.’ But out of nowhere, the world was heavy on my shoulders.”

In July 2018, just a few weeks after giving birth to her now 6-month-old, Cardi — whose real name is Belcalis Marlenis Almánzar — canceled her scheduled tour with Bruno Mars, writing in a statement: “I thought that after giving birth to my daughter that six weeks would be enough time for me to recover mentally and physically. I also thought that I’d bring her on tour, but I think I underestimated this whole mommy thing,” she told fans. “Not only am I not ready physically, I’m not ready to leave my baby behind since the doctors explained it’s not healthy for her to be on the road.”

Just one month later, she took to Instagram to post a video and wrote: “This is how postpartum got me 😩😩The emotional struggle. BARDI vs BELCALIS.”

Although the star has come along way, she admits that she’s not the same physically as she was pre-pregnancy. “For some reason, I still don’t feel like my body’s the same,” Kulture’s mama told the mag. “I feel like I don’t have my balance right yet. When it comes to heels, I’m not as good at walking anymore. I feel like I’m holding a weight on me. I don’t know why because I’m skinnier than I’ve ever been. But there’s an energy I haven’t gotten back yet that I had before I was pregnant. It’s just the weirdest thing.”

Cardi shares her tiny tot with Offset, and although they called it quits in December, the two may be giving love another shot. “I hang out with him, I talk to him every day and we do our thing,” she told People. “It’s just like — to make things perfect … it takes time. You know, f—king and hanging out doesn’t mean that you guys are on like a perfect note, it takes time. It takes time. And it’s a marriage and there’s a child involved and family involved.”

In the meantime, she’s got men sliding into her DMs. “It’s like, ‘Bro, why would you want to holler at me right away? You’re weird,'” she told HB. “If you think Imma automatically hop on you after a marriage, that just means you think I’m a sleaze. And I’m not. I have a kid; I have to show an example.” Sorry, guys, Cardi’s daughter is clearly her #1 priority.

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