She’s grown a lot ever since she left 90 Day Fiancé! Though Larissa Dos Santos Lima never seemed to shy away from a fight on the TLC show, she’s ready to put all of that drama behind her — including her feud with ex Colt Johnson‘s mom, Debbie Johnson. On Sunday, December 29, she took to Instagram to put an end to all of the negativity between them. Extending an olive branch, she shared just how much she admires her former mother-in-law in an effort to start 2020 off on a positive note.

“A new year, a new decade is quickly approaching. While I have been working to better my mind, body and spirit in 2019, I want 2020 to be the year or renewal and to cleanse all the bad energy from the past,” Larissa, 33, wrote in an emotional post. “There has been some very negative back and forth between myself and a former family member. This is something I do not want to do anymore. I don’t want to fight with her, as it is all in the past. My time with the family was a bad phase of my life, and for the three of us it could never work out. Big mistakes were made, and for my part, I’m sorry.”

Referencing her closed domestic violence case, she continued, “I have paid for my mistakes by the law with compliance of the court, but I am sorry with my soul for my part in the break up of the family. I have such fond memories of her, and, when I think of them, I smile. The way we both loved and cared for the cats, we had something in common. I love steak, and she never failed to make me the BEST steak. We had a lot of laughter. When I reflect on things, parting from the negative, I acknowledge a lovely woman that I admire. I do not hate her. I will always have a place in my heart for her. For a short time, we were family.”

But Larissa didn’t just want to make peace with Debbie. She also wanted her fans to follow in her footsteps. “I appreciate so much the support of my followers,” she added. “You encourage me to be a better person every day. I ask you all, please, not to insult my former mother-in-law. This is something I want to stop once and for all. Yes, I react quickly, but I want to stop this. She does not deserve to be insulted or hurt. She is a good person, and one day I hope to see her in a restaurant or in a shop, and hug her. A genuine, warm hug.”

It seems the Brazilian beauty has been reflecting on her past a lot lately. She’s not letting it bog her down, though. Instead, she’s letting it inspire her. While chatting with In Touch in early December, she even revealed that her experience with her criminal assault case has encouraged her to look into law school. “I believe this system to have some flaws,” she told In Touch. “[I] look forward to establish[ing] my citizenship and pursu[ing] a career as a lawyer to help others in a similar situation in [the] future.”

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