The 27-year-old actress, who is as well known for her drug and alcohol problems as she is for her roles in movies like Mean Girls, wore an orange dress in her revealing sitdown interview, which was filmed just four days after she emerged from a treatment program at Cliffside Rehab Center in Malibu, Calif.
"All I can do is live in each moment. I don't have control over tomorrow," said Lindsay. She told Oprah that her main addiction was alcohol and that she'd been in rehab six times total, the first time for Ambien.
Lindsay revealed that her issues began after she moved alone to L.A. as a teenager and started making lots of money. She began going to Hollywood parties and being offered drugs and alcohol. Eventually, she was was arrested following a car chase, and police found drugs in her pants pocket. There were other DUIs and other arrests, jail trips, and rehab visits to follow.
"It's always such a circus when I go to court. It's so humiliating," the star of The Canyons said. "Just seeing my mom and sister's face in that courtroom and my dad was just heartbreaking. It was horrible. I just remember this rush of heat coming over me and just not knowing what to expect. I don't think the embarrassment was as prominent as the shame and the guilt."
As for her mom and dad, Dina Lohan and Michael Lohan, Lindsay says that they have repaired their rift and have a civil relationship again. The Lohans are divorced, and both garnered their own tabloid headlines, separate from Lindsay. One of the low points in their family's relationship was when Michael released a voice mail he got from Lindsay where she said that Dina used cocaine. Lindsay admitted that she was lying about what she said. "She wasn't out of control. I was more out of control. It was a bad mother/daughter fight ... nobody's perfect. I love my parents."
So, what's next? The star has hired a sober coach to be with her and help her stay clean. She recently taped a cameo on the HBO series Eastbound and Down, doing such a great job that the cast and crew gave her a standing ovation on set. Still, the Long Island, NY-born actress knows that she will have to work hard to make people in Hollywood trust her again.
"I have such a desire to want to keep this feeling and stay that way, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes," Lindsay told Oprah. "I really want to be on set. That feeds me."