For someone who’s constantly surrounded by admiring fans, Taylor Swift’s biggest fear may surprise you— she’s afraid of ending up alone.
“What I worry about is that I never want to end up kind of a self-centered, vain human being,” the country superstar told InStyle UK. “My fears circle around me making the wrong choices and messing this up for myself. I don’t wanna end up being awful and intolerable. Alone. Laying in a marble bathtub by myself, like sad, with a glass of wine just complaining that my life ended up alone because I pushed everyone away because I thought I was too good to hang out with anybody.”
Does that mean the 23-year-old, who is known for penning songs about her exes, is questioning her hit-making method of turning her heartbreaks into tunes in fear of burning bridges? Not likely.
In fact, Taylor admits that the way she’s living life now is how she plans on preventing her own sad and lonely ending.
“The typical Hollywood sad cliché of the poor lonely starlet with no one because she put up all these walls and didn’t trust anyone— That’s my fear,” she says. “And that’s why I live my life the way I live my life because I’d so much rather feel everything than end up like that.”
While her chart-toppers “Dear John,” “Back to December,” “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together,” “I Almost Do,” and others are admittedly about her ex-boyfriends, one of Taylor’s songs insists she’s never going to end up miserable and alone, like she fears: “Mean.”
“All you are is mean/And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life and mean/ But someday I'll be living in a big ol' city/And all you're ever gonna be is mean/ Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me/And all you're ever gonna be is mean,” she croons.
It sounds to us like Taylor’s got everything figured out.
“I’ve thought that I did have a dream scenario before, but it turns out that I change my mind and that essentially in your 20s all the puzzle pieces of your life are thrown up in the air and they just fall into whatever place and I think that’s healthy,” she tells the mag.
Do you think Taylor has the right attitude about her fairytale ending?