Earlier this year, rapper Andre Johnson made headlines by cutting off his own penis before jumping off a building in Hollywood.
And for the first time, the rapper, who also goes by Christ Bearer, has opened up about his shocking decision and why he did what he did.
“I was using drugs that night, but I was in complete control,” he says.
“I cut it off because that was the root of all my problems. My solution to the problem was the realization that sex is for mortals, and I am a god… Those kinds of activities got me into trouble, and I came here to be a god.”
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Of course, Andre lived through the night. Unfortunately, most of his reproductive organs did not survive—despite reports at the time insisting doctors were able to reattach what was left.
“Doctors weren’t able to repair anything,” he explains.
“But it still gets hard, the little bit that I got. I still got some penis that works. It’s not the size of the prize; it’s the motion of the ocean. There’s no mystery to it, but they couldn’t reattach it. A penis is a penis is a penis. I wasn’t having that much sex up to that point anyway.”
And while some men wouldn’t be able to cope with such a significant loss, Andre remains grateful to be alive.
“I didn’t want to kill myself,” he tells E! News.
“That was just my response to the demons. They were doing their best to get me, but being alive solidified my thoughts… I’m alive, penis or no penis.”