Kendra Wilkinson loves her adorable son, Hank Jr., but in the new issue of In Touch — on newsstands now — the reality star reveals her secret fear of reliving the postpartum depression she suffered after giving birth in 2009.
"I was living under a gray cloud, and lost who I was," Kendra, 26, tells In Touch, adding that at her worst she felt as if she “had nothing to live for.”
And Kendra says after the delivery, she struggled to get her body back. "It took me two years to not only get my body back, but to feel like myself again."
Not only is the star desperate to avoid another breakdown, but she worries that her husband Hank Baskett's uncertain career path renders a second child impossible.
"I'm not going to say it's easy," she confesses of being the breadwinner for the retired football player-turned-aspiring actor, 29. "But I'm willing to work harder so that he can find what he wants to do."