In the wake of the shocking deaths of actress Brittany Murphy and heiress Casey Johnson, many are concerned that Lindsay Lohan may be next on the celebrity deathwatch list - and will suffer the same tragic fate if she doesn't get help immediately. Lindsay, 23, seems to be aware of her destructive behavior. Around New Year's, she tweeted, "2010 is about moving forward, not backward. Leaving the bad people, habits and negative energy behind - time to make changes - right!?!?" And in recorded phone calls in 2009 to her father, Michael Lohan - which were obtained exclusively by In Touch - Lindsay admits that her partying was once so out of control, she nearly died. "In Miami, Mommy threw me in the cab, and I stopped breathing for 10 seconds," she reveals in one call to her dad. "They read me my last rites."
Lindsay's friends are not the least bit surprised to hear that she put her health at risk. "She used to stay up all night doing drugs and drinking vodka with a bunch of downers," a pal tells In Touch. "She would start off with one or two pills, and would take more until she calmed down." Her family is of little help, too. While Lindsay has criticized Michael for making passionate public pleas for her to seek treatment, her mother, Dina, rarely acknowledges Lindsay's problems. Lindsay has always maintained that her relationship with Dina is rosy, but in one of the recorded phone calls, she reveals that she's bitter that her mom is more interested in reaping the benefits of her fame rather than caring about her. "I hate her," Lindsay seethes. With her real friends MIA, her father estranged and her mother seemingly unwilling to accept Lindsay's issues, the insider says, "It leaves her without anyone who really cares for her in her life." And that could end up being a recipe for disaster.